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This is a nearly true account of my own depression. The real version, the one that I recorded in my blog, is that a black cat had saved me from my own attempted death. I am still suffering from trauma over the incident, mostly because I hate cats and I think God was pulling a cosmic joke on me of some sort at that time. The song is "Nothing Can Be Explained" by Mike Wyzgowski. And yes, I am still depressed. There are lots of things... lots of inexplicable things... that I can't actually describe as to how they disturb me. End.

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Uploaded: November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am
Author: amelhanan

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asboselecta24 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
You bunch of oddballs. Do everyone a favour and end it all. lol
asboselecta24 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
do it !!!!
1HandsomeJohnny (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
I'm on a verge of wanting to kill myself
ShoeMage (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
I'm not trying to incite death, but if you do ever want to commit suicide, there's a clinic that will help you do it LEGALLY, and with no pain during your last hours. I've thought about suicide many times, break away from this hell I seem to be trapped in, but then I think it would be the cowards way out, and so I'm going to live my life the way it's supposed to be lived. Call me weird, but if there is an afterlife, I don't think you'll be allowed there unless your life ends naturally.
amelhanan (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
Chania24, Will your escape fit as punishment for these small psychological crimes against you? You actually have a choice either to act out a tragic end and board off the train without getting the actual answer - or create a new chapter and unlock further plots in your story to get to the real ending. You have the power to choose your story.
chania24 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
i have none i am alone anyway .. it will be like an escape for me a philosoical answer a tragic act the final defination of a personal choise i can't stand all those small everyday phsycological crimes against me that happens every day ...i don't know i will see what happens ...
amelhanan (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
We keep asking what the significance of our life is to this world. If we could be with someone else for some time, we might make a difference to that world we know. Maybe, that's how we'll find out our significance.
amelhanan (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
chania24, There is no suicide without pain & suffering. Suffering leads to one's suicide, and suicide leads to his/her family & friends' suffering. And the cycle may go on with another suicide by them. Do you want to create a cycle of pain & suffering among the person you care about, chania24?
chania24 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
i would like to know if there is any way to suicide without suffering or fail . Last May i tried tablets and alcohol !! It was a nightmare ...
brainiaczp0 (November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am)
I know exactly how you feel amelhanan, im also in "deep depression" and its so hard to live with this pain.I'm sure that sooner or later i will commit suicide its really hard to be here.

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